Prince of the rodeo

Its wierd how i cant do anything but complain on the internet, I need to cheer up

I feel stupid, im done.

littlefishinthebigpond:

Sorry I will quit with the inappropriate posting ;) xo

Its fine haha, im a noob at this so it seperates the rants and surveys with sideboob everynow and then, btw, i realise i may be replying in the shittest way, but i have no idea how to use this ¬¬ x

Everything is pretty clear now, i dont like it, but what can i do? I think being genuinley happy is abit of a longshot for me at the moment, so all i can do is sit back and pretend nothing is bothering me, when really its eating me from the inside, which is bad really. I sound like a selfish cunt when i say this, but my life is preeetty wank, i know i have it better than most people, but yeah, I guess im not cut out for love or any of that shit, im 17. But i would like to know what it is about me, that drives people away, and why it conveniently gives enough time for me to get attatched before people come to there senses?

I am so uncontent with my life its slightly funny, Im hardly ever genuinley happy anymore, and yeah its pretty wank, no matter what i seem to do i know i could always be happier, and tbh i have no idea how i become happy, i feel pretty cold inside most of the time. Overall, im not a ‘happy chappy’ lmao